This is Who I Am and All I Have to Give

I never thought it would get to this point.

As a kid I saw a completely different picture. I thought life would get better with age and though I can’t say I was wrong, I just wish I was more aware of what lies ahead.

I wish I could take a random survey, probably interview about a thousand people among my peers just to ask them if they see what I see and feel how I feel, if they had to explain their every step, every accident and every coincidence, maybe then I would feel normal again.

Life has always had its twists and turns and every single day, it comes with a surprise, but I never thought I would have to defend who I am and why I behave the way I do.

I have a lot experiences which define me and so have you, I guess that’s what makes us unique and gives us the ability to complement each other. You can’t expect me to act the way you want me for I have a mind of my own, but if there is anything I can change, believe me I will.

I cannot tell you why I wasn’t born into the family of a billionaire. I can’t explain why I don’t have a closet full of clothes and shoes, designer bags and wigs to impress you. I cannot show you a mansion on the most expensive landscapes so you could be wowed and sing my praises all day, but if you care, I can introduce you to the most beautiful people on earth.

I never chose them and neither did they choose me but they love me all the same, on good and bad days. If you care to join us at dinner, you will not be treated like a stranger. It will be an honour to share with you. They can be your family too.

I can’t explain why I was not born a model, with the finest hair and the most radiant skin. I don’t know why I don’t have an hourglass figure and a butt you can flaunt at he beach so all your friends will wish they were you.

I may not know all the kamasutra positions or how you want to be pleased. I am not the stripper in your widest fantasies who dresses up to give you an amusing show.

But if you want to stay with me, I promise to love you and cherish you even if it takes all my energy. I may not get you the most expensive gifts, but I would not let go of you when you are falling and in case one shoulder isn’t enough, you can have my whole body to lean on.

I am not perfect and I have a lot of mood swings. There are days you would see me at my best and others will come when I will be at my worst.

I am completely clueless about what the next hour might bring, just like you I have no idea what the future holds. My grandfather never left me a huge fortune for an inheritance so I have to work hard to be comfortable.

I cannot promise you a smooth ride, but if you would hold my hand through life’s journey, I promise to close my eyes while you sleep so we can have the same dream. I will burn the midnight candle with you just to keep you company.

I promise to support you and spur you to greatness and when you return home empty handed, I will remain grateful and content, because I know you tried.

There are things about me I cannot change or control, but if you will take me as I am, I promise to be the best that I can be.